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i reli don like to go for work...tat place is jus a hell for me...but lucky today my dear help me to do the most ma fan tings...reli thanks to him....even though i keep talking bout him when he helping..make him till no mood...but actually i jus playing n joking wif him....reli thanks n thanks....muakss...but i still cant finish my tings...nowaday my works can become a mountain.....it make me late to class....haih..
after class...i meet my cousin at the college....then oni i wonder she oso study wif me in the same place....haha...so i jus wait for my dear come pick me up....sumore my atm card gone,not in my purse.....i fel bad when i wan to withdraw out the money..reli dono how...scare to lost it...so i decide go home check again.hope reli can find out... Confused

i feel sad n bad mood again...coz i had call my dear n he say still at serdang...so i decide bring my cousin go eat coz she haven eat yet...coz dear still at serdang...sure is far from here....i oso don1 them accompany at outside like a sapo....=) sumore my cousin had told her mom tat i'll bring her go for eat....tinking of if bring her eat after tesco sure is late for her...so no choice de...oni acc my dear eat after de tesco...but~~~~~~~~~~~~~during eating tat time,i keep had sms my dear to ask whether he had ate or not...coz normally sure he'll wait me then oni eat together...so all the while i tinking of wan da bao or not...but then fail de...coz i tink if da bao then no place eat n i oso dono he ate or not..coz he no reply me...n oso tinking tat if he no eat then i can acc him coz tmr is holiday...hehe....then when he call me tat time n i no pick up...tat time oni i realize tat my phone is on silent mode...hahaha....so i quicky call back once i realize his msg n call....but i fel wori is when i get into the car...i saw his face reli in bad mood...ask oso no answer to me....so i jus keep quite....all the while he drive fast....i got mention tat don drive so fast coz i scare my cousin will scare n oso let her fel bad gua....dono he got realize or not....anyway tat is ok de....
but make me fel disappointed is when i asking him wat is going on....he finally ans me but then say i no tink bout him then go eat de...but tat time i reli got tinking can go accompany him after pick them back.when back tat time reli got abit fight...i reli don like him show out the unhappe face n when i talk wif him oso will get the not good respond...it make me wori n don like....at 1st i tot he'll pujuk me back de..but nope...i reli wan to cry out at car oredi.....his bad mood become my bad mood...y others ppl wont like tat....when i say y giving such face but he say me back again..always is him do sumting else oni make me feel tat kind of face....dono how to express my feeling...scare talk much wrong much....beside,i don1 him got any bad imej from my family.....
thus, make me more disappointed is i saw his blog....n i saw wat he wrote....if i no send a msg to him...wat is the msg he'll send out to me...i oredi can figure out de...i oso dono how to say bout it......i reli don tink tat i'm wrong....as i noe he jus bad mood coz of traffic n cant pick me go tesco on time...but i wori is he had eat or not...but at last is gv me tis respond...T.T i dono how to do de....reli cant take care of ppl...tat is the happiness n sadness for today..i jus hoping tmr trip...but now all my mood is spoil.......my atm card is lost.....i reli reli bad mood..cant find anyone to chat....reli wan cry out de....i had call the center to cancel my card but tat fella not in gd sound....i reli scare will lost all money....sumore tmr is labor day....how i go check for it....reli fel sad...i oni can find other frens to share my prob......reli fel bad now................scare no money in the bank then my dad will scold me but i reli cant find out de.....where the card go.....who can help me??????????????anyway,wish all ppl hv a nice day... Smile

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April 28

moody

now oni i realize this few days reli no in the good mood......everything small tings also will get angry or moody easy. is tat coz too stress???or coz of sumting tat i fel cant achieve and lots tings haven done???now oni i noe once a person moody reli feel like don1 chat or eat or explain or answering ppl...even now working,ppl asking me the question n i oni answer half....never n never complete answering. including my family also....i hv much ting to say but dono y my mouth don1 to open out speak.
tis moment reli fel wan cry but no tear will come out..reli hope got anyone can understanding my feeling...i hard to express out...when tis kind of day will be end.....i tink is over stress and tiring....jus fel angry to myself once i cant do anything....the oni way i can express out my feeling is write sumting in my blog....i can write it out without looking any words...jus write watever i happe n feel.....it make me fel fun....

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April 27

~stress~

dono y today do everything oso not good...jus suddenly feel stress....now oni i realize lots of my frens start saying n asking wat is going on wif me??? coz my face look so tire n no any energy...i hope can stop my life like tat...it make me feel sien n not enjoyable.
tis morning oredi start doing wrong tings...reli dono wat is going on wif me...afternoon my am come to my place n asking me is that doing my own hw at working hw...start got sum stupid fella complain...they reli wont tink bout wat i feel...i feel reli wan scold them whether they got their brain to tink or not....do u guys tink studying n working is very easy tings...when working sure is no time go for do hw or revision de...so jus use every minute, hours, second to do my tings...don even waste it de...coz tis is my last sem....but they cant tink of it..still tot i'm child n say manager complain or wat...i reli hope i can graduate n get a good results...
damn tire....reli make me feel stress n no mood at all...now oni last yr sem 1...there oredi got 5 or 6 assig is waiting for me n also include hw...n oso my revision...anytings oso haven complete...i reli hope can faster end up for it...my health is not going good if i keep on like tat...stressful~~~~~~~~~~when can i release......???? Sad

dono wat should i write...after wrote out...fel abit better....haih~~~~~~~~~jus gv me a break for rest...i tink need a long n long times to recover back my energy, happiness, active and lots........... Thinking

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April 23

boring and down mood day

wow...now oni i realize i had long time no wrote and update my blog...hahaha...dono y today feel wan to wrote sumting at here.this morning reli make me feel tire and lazy to wake up.hmmm...actually cannot say oni tis morning,coz few days oredi make me feel like tat.i oso dono y...
lucky tis morning i no ned to do anything,then straight away go office work...when reach office tat time is totally down...no mood chat wif ppl n oso no mood to do my works...i hold my tings until after lunch oni start to do..i tink my whole body had lots lazy worms.lol...my jie come n chat wif me awhile during working hr...coz she realize tat today i very down n look tiring...so she jus concern bout me...on 5pm,my colleague ask me to print out sumting but i reli cant do for her...then dono wat she talk when i say no time...jus no mood to bother her anymore...sien!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i jus oni can say tat....dono wat happen on me....jus suddenly like tat....n had the down mood n oso tiring....even my jie and frens asking me wat is going on....but i reli dono how to tel out the feeling....jus wan korek my heart n gv them c n touch it....hahaha...
then tonite hv to attend class, damn tire n boring.so i ask my bro to pick me to station. when reach tat time oni i go out n wait for him at lobby. but i had wait him at outside half an hour...mood become more n more down..coz i tot he come from his skul which nearby my working place....but actually he come from care4...tat y hv to wait so long due to traffic jam at there.so i cant make any noise to my bro...jus keep quite oni...=.=
btw,reli thanks to some of my frens...coz during tat time,i had alone in train and mood is totally down and not yet recover..my frens had sms me n oso acc me half of the journey in train...thus,i jus on my mp5 and sit there listening all songs....i fel blur n blur n dong sitting in the train alone...outside ppl sure tot i'm siao liao...when reach college tat time is totally late.so i jus try concentrate on my study...maybe wat my fren say is true,i too stress n too stress till i cant feel n saw it....jus dun feel like working n studying and also feel so lonely even got ppl around us.....coz me n my fren oso in same situation...she had oso feel mood down same as me on today.....
anyway, hope tmr hv a nice day de.....cheer......=)